Day 69

The weirdest thing happened in Relief Society today!  We were singing the closing hymn, "As Sisters In Zion," and while we were on the second verse I suddenly started tearing up to the point where I couldn't hold it in anymore.  I honestly have no clue what occurred inside of me, but the music touched me.  We as sisters bear such special gifts.  We are literally daughters of a loving Heavenly Father who is always watching over us and wants so badly for us to realize our full potential.

I'm not quite sure what the errand of angels means, but this is what I've come up with.  One of the definitions of errand according to dictionary.com is, "a special mission or function entrusted to a messenger; commission."  As women we have the unique gift/mission of the errand of angels.  We have been entrusted to do the work of angels.  That seems like a daunting task, but it really isn't.  As women, we naturally have qualities that make us much like angels.  The last verse really makes everything clear to me.  "As sisters in zion" there is so much work for us to do, and the way that we will accomplish everything that we need to is by the Spirit.  "Oh, naught but the Spirit's divinest tuition/Can give us the wisdom to truly succeed."  By following the example of Christ and the whisperings of the Spirit, we will succeed.

This is the perfect song for sister missionaries especially.  This is our purpose, our mission, the reason why we're doing what we do!  I'm not sure how this relates exactly, but speaking of missions, preparing for a mission hasn't been the easiest thing.  Satan is working so hard to get me to give up because things seem a little too hard or too complicated.  I've been getting anxious over the tiniest things, and I often feel as though I'm inadequate.  I get scared of being separated from my family for 18 months, and the thought of possibly having to communicate the gospel to people in a language I don't know is quite intimidating.  I'm not going to let that stop me from serving a mission though, and I've found strength as I've turned to Heavenly Father for help.  However, Satan will be working full time against me and for others preparing for missions so it's not going to be easy.  I'm just so grateful that I have a Heavenly Father and a Savior who know what I am going through and who will always be there to help me.

1. 1. As sisters in Zion, we'll all work together;
   The blessings of God on our labors we'll seek.
   We'll build up his kingdom with earnest endeavor;
   We'll comfort the weary and strengthen the weak.
2. 2. The errand of angels is given to women;
   And this is a gift that, as sisters, we claim:
   To do whatsoever is gentle and human,
   To cheer and to bless in humanity's name.
3. 3. How vast is our purpose, how broad is our mission,
   If we but fulfill it in spirit and deed.
   Oh, naught but the Spirit's divinest tuition
   Can give us the wisdom to truly succeed.
4. Text: Emily H. Woodmansee, 1836-1906
   Music: Janice Kapp Perry, b. 1938. (c) 1985 IRI