Day 15

At church today there was some discrepancy in who was supposed to teach the lesson, so no lesson had been prepared.  Luckily, we have an RA who is a returned missionary in our class and so he taught the lesson.  At the end there was time for testimonies.  A girl named Megan got up and bore her testimony. I am so grateful that she had the courage to go up and share it because it touched me very much.

I'm not too sure where to begin, but Megan is originally from Chicago and her family just moved to Utah (after she graduated).  When Megan heard about the change in the mission age for girls she was overwhelmed.  For a long time she had received revelation and knew that one day she would go on a mission, but she thought that it was a good 3 years off.  Now that she could potentially leave in a few months she had no idea what to do.  So, Megan decided to pray...and after she prayed she had a confirmation that a mission was the right thing to do once winter semester was over.  Later that day, when Megan was sitting downstairs in her home by herself, she started to question the revelation she received earlier in the day.  Thoughts of things she had done wrong and needed to fix, thoughts of inadequacy, and thoughts that she wasn't good enough to go on a mission flooded into her mind.  At that moment she felt so confused and had no idea what to do.

Now, let's backtrack.

When Megan was in seminary class she shared a story where she felt the same inadequacy that she felt now. After doing so, her teacher put her arm around Megan's shoulder and told her, "You know who that is right?  Telling you that you aren't good enough and can't possibly do anything about it?"  The teacher was alluding to Satan.  Satan often tries to tell us that we aren't good enough and that there's no way out, so we might as well give up.  The comment that Megan's seminary teacher said really stuck with her.  Now, later in the year, her teacher was in the Dominican Republic and had a bad fall and went into a coma.  After Megan moved to Utah, her teacher was still in a coma, but to a lesser degree.

Now, back to the present.

One day Megan decided to go to the temple and try to receive answers to what she had been going through regarding a mission.  As she was sitting there she could literally feel the arm of her teacher holding her, and the voice of her teacher saying, "You know you that is right?"  And Megan knew right then, that the person telling her that she wasn't good enough to go on a mission was Satan.  Megan decided from that point that she wasn't going to let Satan determine her decisions.  She would listen to the revelation that Heavenly Father had given her.

I loved Megan's testimony so much.  Heavenly Father truly loves everyone and will give us revelation if we just ask.  I know that he would never ever tell any of us that we are inadequate or that there is no way to fix our wrongdoings.  He wants us to return to him as much as we want to be with him.  He loves his children with all that he is.  I know that for a fact.

A picture of Christ, just because he's amazing :)